Episode 6 - Too depressed for wrestling

This episode has it all: poor mental health, burnout, and rants with a can-do attitue.

We also talk a little bit about wrestling too, specifically our trip to see Eve's Wrestlequeendom 2, and our thoughts on Session Goth Martina, Charlie Morgan's farewell, and our much need introduction to Stardom. But we mostly talk about a very relatable subject: what happens when you are just too depressed to watch wrestling? With some additional rants about capitalism chats about internalised misogyny, and everyone's favourite Sunday night gender non-conforming landlord Gentleman Jack

Content warnings for talk about the diet industry and fatphobia as we absolutely tear down the abhorrent Cancer Research fat-shaming ads. We get real emotional this episode which means that we are maybe a bit inarticulare about such a huge subject and so we miss some important points and make some mistakes. For example we name Weight Watchers when it's actually Slimming World which has the very dubious and dangerous relationship with Cancer Research but do you know what, fuck Weight Watchers too. And to keep things on topic, fuck any wrestlers who use their bodies and their platform to promote laxatives and other diet stuff to young followers in the name of 'health'.

Please read this extremely well researched and articulate open letter to Cancer Research which talks about this subject in more in-depth ways than we ever could on a wrestling podcast.

Hosted by Holly Casio and Shahnaz Zarif. Music production by George Phillips

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Episode 5 - Friends Forever

This is a real emotional episode as we pay tribute to one of our fave wrestlers and lover of butts and meat, Kris Wolf.

We talk through the emotional rollercoaster which was her retirement show at Pro-Wrestling Eve and why it was maybe our favourite wrestling show of all time. Seeing her friends say goodbye to her in the ring was a LOT.

Friendships in wrestling is honestly what attracted us to this ridiculous form of entertainment forever. The loyalty, emotional bonds, jealousy, and inevitable betrayal ending in nothing but deep-seated respect is a thing of beauty and keeps us coming back for more.

We go through a lot in this episode. From our love of Kris Wolf to saying goodbye to Dean Ambrose and The Shield, to why fans disrespect for Sasha Banks is based on nothing but racism and sexism, to why all wrestlers should unionise. It's a real humdinger

Hosted by Holly Casio and Shahnaz Zarif. Music production by George Phillips

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Watch Kris Wolf's retirement show at Pro-Wrestling Eve

Episode 4 - Unladylike

Zines and wrestling are our two big loves and in this episode we chat DIY self-publishing and who controls the narrative of wrestling history with Heather Bandenburg.

Heather is a wrestler, a ref, a zinester, wrestling historian, and also recent recipient of arts council funding for her incredible Cher themed feminist cabaret show I Need To Cher. We chat about not knowing who the Undertaker is, gatekeeping in wrestling, and her upcoming book Unladylike: a Grrls Guide to Wrestling

Hosted by Holly Casio and Shahnaz Zarif. Music production by George Phillips
Guests: Heather Bandenburg

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Pre-order Heather's book here: 

White Vego review.

Welcome to our first video post, lovingly made by Shahnaz at a KS1 level!

Today we're reviewing the new White Vego, which is big news in our world. Check it out, let us know what you think! 

Vego. We aren't proud, we will accept sponsorship.

Episode 3 - Burning Hearts

The first live wrestling show we ever attended was a Burning Hearts show, so it's fitting that they are our first ever guests on Grap Grrrlz! 

Burning Hearts are an inclusive women's wrestling collective based in London, and Jane, Heather, Kayla, Paloma, and Mischa join us to talk about running things in a diy way. From finding venues, running training sessions, and putting on shows, Burning Heart's diy ethos runs throughout. We chat about the practicalities of creating a safe space for women to train and learn from each other, and how it's really not important to even know who The Undertaker is at your first wrestling session.
There are so many parallels with the world of diy punk and we chat about creating something for your own communities, sharing skills, and the importance of keeping things diy and inclusive.

Fun fact: did you know that resident Grap Grrrl Shahnaz is currently training with Burning Hearts? We spend a good 15 minutes of this episode describing in heartfelt detail the day that Shahnaz made her debut in the ring.

Hosted by Holly Casio and Shahnaz Zarif. Music production by George Phillips
Guests: Jane, Heather, Kayla, Paloma, Mischa

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You can get tickets for the next Burning Hearts show Femme Fatality here:

Episode 2 - Total Divas

Let's be real, Total Divas was our gateway into the world of wrestling and we won't hear a bad word against it. 

In our second episode we chat all things Total Divas and the levels of fiction and kayfabe in reality tv. And we mean, if you don't watch Total Divas, are you even a WWE fan? Come on fake fanboys.

We chat about how the show foreshadowed Daniel Bryan's smug vegan fascist heel turn years before it happened in the ring, how those luxury holiday episodes just seem like total nightmares, and the absolute wonder that is Natty.

Hosted by Holly Casio and Shahnaz Zarif. Music production by George Phillips.

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I Need To Get DDP Yoga Off My Chest!

You've heard of DDP yoga right?

Everyone going, including people with no interest in wrestling have heard its grand!

Despite the fact that I've never really enjoyed yoga, I saw a soundbite of Sasha Banks and Charlotte Flair saying it was really good, which was far more inspiring to me than any of the friends who mentioned it, sorry friends. I tried to find it on YouTube, which is where I find most of my workouts, but alas alack I was found wanting. However, at this point my curiosity had been piqued, my only option was to subscribe.

Now I don't know if I'm fitter than I think, (unlikely because I don’t have the endurance to run to the end of my street) but I found DDPY pretty easy, I actually think Blogilates is harder, but for ages I've been looking for something equally effective for a lazy girl who needs her endorphins boosting, where the trainer wasn't so peppy and accidentally / not so accidentally body shaming me whilst instructing me to squeeze my butt. So, I wasn't entirely won over by the introductory video featuring DDP telling us how much weight each person modelling a move has lost on his programme. Still I thought I'd best give it some time to see how well it worked.

DDP is meant to be great for people with pain and other impairments, in fact it is supposedly responsible for bringing Chris Jericho back from a career ending injury, and yet in my first week i had lower back pain from squeezing my muscles really hard trying to get something out of it. Probably my own fault, but DDP does urge you to really tense your muscles, so probably a bit of your fault too DDP!

Finally, the app recommends you pair a heart monitor to see how effectively you're raising your heartbeat. Now I am a woman who exercises in her underwear by following along free YouTube videos, so you can probably tell how invested I am in spending money on workout gear. But since I didn't think it was working i bought myself a cute cheap pink heart monitor off eBay, of course it wasn't compatible with the app and I am not the one to buy a fit bit or DDP branded heart monitor for actual money. The pink monitor hasn't been a total loss though, I did find out I have a higher BPM at work than I do working out. Food for socialist thought there.

I've been doing DDP for a month now, and I haven't seen any results yet, I know Yoga is really about core strength and stability, but if I’m paying actual money, I want glamour muscles, like Sasha Banks! I'm sorry DDP but it’s not for me. 

I continue to wonder though, why do so many people sing its praises?

Here's what I suspect; it may be the Scientology of Yoga and everyone who is into it really genuinely believes in the benefit of recruiting more people. OR because you have to subscribe to it, its like the emperors new clothes, no one who's tried it wants to admit that it’s just normal yoga but with a metal soundtrack, and the position names whimsically altered to be wrestling themed, which is cute. I'm a sucker for a gimmick. It’s kind of like going to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child, but instead of being asked to keep the secrets, you feel too embarrassed to admit this work out is profoundly average.


GG Shahnaz